It's been a long time

I have always struggled to write words that people could understand, that could bring them into my world for a moment and for i while, a long while, i gave up on my blog!

Today i am starting again, i will give it a second chance at life. I will improve at the things i struggle at. I will write well or i will die trying.

A lot has happened since i last wrote.

My daughter turned 8.
I had my second wedding anniversary.
Christmas came and went as did the New Year.
Chloe started to read.
We moved house (moving sucks)
We have started saving to buy our own home.

But the most amazing thing is i have finally become content with the life i am living, i have a wonderful husband (even though he tries to prove me wrong sometimes), i have an amazing daughter who loves me unconditionally and i return the favour right back at her, i love my job and i have a support network of family and friends that i could not live without.

Don't get me wrong, it hasn't been all sunshine and roses, we have become estranged from my husbands family, something that i hope in time i can repair/forgive. I have to find a new school for Chloe and my brother has lost and then found again his way in life as an husband become ex-husband, a man and father.

Today i have come back.... it has been a long time but it won't be again!

Over It

Today is just one of those days... I got my hopes up and they were shattered again. I just wish someone would understand that once, just once, i would like for something to be done my way, or for my idea to be followed through with.

Today just sucks. I am over it.

Good/Bad Friend

It has been a while since i posted but my mind has been in so many places.

I told her not to marry him!!! Am i a bad friend for saying it, an honest friend for always telling her the truth? I don't know.

I am talking about the one friend who has always been there for me, the one who knows my every little secret. They have been in each others lives for over 15 years. He was her first real love and was there for her when her marriage ended, He has been a wonderful step - father to her daughter, but I can't shake the feeling he is not the same person he was, that there is something deeper going on (sleeping with an ex-coworker).

He finally proposed a couple of months ago (just as she was about to leave)... She said yes, rang me to tell me...my response was "what, why?"

I truly believe there is a difference between loving someone and really being in love with someone. I know her like the back of my hand, I think she loves him for all that they have been through and not in love with man that he has become and i really think it will be a mistake so i told her.

I have this feeling it might come back to bite me in the arse even though she told me she loves me for being honest.


Don't get me wrong i think he is a nice person, just not the person for her anymore.

I will be by her side if she ends it and standing next to her as she marries him. The choice is hers. I still don't know... Good/Bad friend??

FUN

Feels like forever since i have written anything on here (probably cause it has been forever).

I am going to see PINK tomorrow night on the last leg of her FUNHOUSE tour and i can't wait. I have had these tickets for nearly a year.

Well, i found out on Friday that within the next 12 weeks my girl will be going in for Oral Surgery due to a defect in two of her back molars causing two of them to become very damaged. I am not looking forward to her being under a general anesthetic. That is not going to be fun!!!!

Well off to do housework!

Thanks

Just had to quickly say that I LOVE MY MAN!!.

Sometime i think he can be so male that i want to hit in the back head and then out of the blue he goes and does lots of little things for me just cause he can.

Thanks babe, i know i don't always show my appreciation, but i love you.

School Holidays

Well it has been school holidays for the last 2 weeks and Chloe goes back to school in a couple of days. I would love to have spent more time with her or gone on a family holiday, but for now it just isn't going to happen.

Bring on a time when my family is at its healthiest. Speaking on health, in a fortnight she has an appointment with the dentist (under anesthetic) and an appointment with a new pediatrician. Then things will be managed properly again.

I would love to stay and chat, but i really want to finish watching Harry Potter.

It just keeps on coming

It has been a while since i last posted. I was supposed to write this weekend, well that was the plan.

I thought it was going to be an awesome weekend, I had my best friend's engagement party, which was amazing and beautiful, then while almost asleep get the call that my brother is in hospital (not the first time).... seems someone felt the need to smash a glass over the back of his head while he was walking out of the pub and break his jaw. It is never good when my phone rings after midnight.

Saturday was fun until my darling husbands friend chose not to leave until 3am.. (not my favourite person anyway).

Then today i found out that the hubbys work is trying to screw him over.... not the week to mess with my family, i swear!!!!

I don't know what to do..it just keeps coming!

Hopefully this week gets better.